The "R" Word

The "R" Word

But, racism does not have to mean hate crimes, or discrimination.  Racism can also be that hidden part of ourselves that fears what we do not know.  Racism can be allowing cultural stereotypes to inform perceptions.  Racism can be what we do with each and every one of those small, split second decisions we make.  And, Its in those split second decisions that lives are changed or lost. 

My Story: Necessity is the Mother of Re-Invention

My Story: Necessity is the Mother of Re-Invention

Over the past six months, I've wrestled with where to go with this music venture.  Do I record another album? Do I ramp up my efforts and commit even more time to developing a career in music?  Do I throw in the towel on this whole thing and go back to playing piano when I can? I've had an idea rolling around in the back of my mind and have, up till now, left it there because I've been afraid of the amount of work it would require and the scariness of it all.  However, after months of processing, thinking, praying, and hinting at something new, I've made a decision...

The Songwriter's Journey: A Real String of Pearls

The Songwriter's Journey: A Real String of Pearls

Now, contentment may seem pretty trite in comparison to fame and notoriety, but think about it for a moment.  At the core of who we are, do we not function best when we are content?  Do we not see things more clearly?  Are we not able to love better and deeper?  Instead of fear, anxiety or worry motivating us, can we not be motivated by compassion, mercy and justice?  The earlier being internal protectionist motivators, the later being outward life-giving motivators.  In a spirit of contentment, I can look at fame and notoriety, not as an end, but as a means. 

Dirt Honesty: Songwriter's Journey

Dirt Honesty: Songwriter's Journey

I'm on a highway in a city.  Its treacherous.  The road moves dramatically up, down, and around tight curves.  I'm moving at gut-wrenching speeds in order to keep up with traffic and it feels as if I might loose control at any moment.  There is no ground, only the highway suspended in mid air.  If I should veer ever so slightly I will plunge down into the unknown.  I'm unsure of where I'm going, so I frantically look at signs, trying to determine my course.  My heart is racing and I'm overwhelmed. 

Then I wake up and the anxiety of this recurring dream lingers for a moment. 

Community is a Verb: Pt 2

Community is a Verb: Pt 2

What remains, though, is an emotional, psychological and/or mental deficiency in connecting and committing to others in a real way. Just as a newborn's heart rate and breathing can be regulated by simply placing him or her on their mother's chest, I believe our emotional/psychological/mental health depends on personal, present and tangible connection and dependance on others (and more than just our families, I might add).

Every Hard Fought Mile: In Which Purpose is Found

Why?  Why am I doing this?  Why?  What a waste of resources and time.  I could be home with my husband and kids.  Time away from them is so valuable these days - is this all really worth it?  The not-knowing?  The risk?  I've started this whole thing too late in life - at the wrong time.  Most of my musician friends have been doing this for a decade.  They don't seem to have to fight so hard.